My father died 9 years ago today while I was 6 months pregnant with my first child. I never fully grieved. the day in the hospital. before he died, he was frail and exhausted with dementia, and now a broken arm. Mom was fed up and did not want to care for him anymore, he […]
Author: ketosober
Day 243 April 1
Day 242
It’s Easter. I attended my last final meeting for Personal Revolution. I felt ready to share my stories, but I didn’t, and halfway through the hour I remembered this day March 31 was the last day- nine years ago- I saw my father before he passed. It was hard not to cry in front of […]
day 42
I have committed and even though it’s been hard im doing it. The practice of quitting this past year got me mentally and physically ready. and it is work. I gave into carbs for the last two weeks, but today started a keto diet, Well maybe tomorrow, as long as I don’t drink my day […]
Day 4
I sleep well my tooth feels better and im happy that i did not drink. happy about the choices im making. i did some writing, reading alan carr, did not drink
Day 3
Dads birthday. I have a toothache that i will not have the appointment to know the solution until Monday. My face hurts and my tooth pain is affecting my speech. the dnetist persribes my a antibiotic even thought they don’t think it will help. it helps, i went to the cemetery and was able to […]
Day 3: Dad’s Birthday
I woke up not hungover, my tooth was in pain but manageable with Advil. it’s getting worse. Usually, my drinking gets heavier with a toothache, but drinking doesn’t seem as desirable today for me-now at 10 am. also, it is my Father’s Biday. yes, I have daddy issues. 89 he would have been. my immediate […]
day 2: Tooth
resolve set in. I had a dentist appointment, which is a definite stress, trigger, etc. I was given the runaround by my first dentist, now out of network, the second in-network dentist suggested, I see the endodontics that originally did the root canal; I called the endodontics, but their server is down, and on Monday […]
Day 2: Quit Lit
The new niche way of storytelling combinding, a survey of research material along with antidotes illuminating social structures of alcohol, drugs, social media, etc. with themes of feminism… I am on the final chapter of the second Quit lit book, the first being Holly Whitakers: Quit Like a woman, the naked mind is the second. […]
where is my resolve
I drank all weekend, mich ultra 12 packs, and 2 bottles of prosecco, a bit because of socializing, a bit because of stress, and a bit because of no willpower. I don’t know where to find my commitment.
still not counting
I did not drink yesterday Sunday, last night I made it to 8 pm and then drank five White Claws in two hours. Seven hours later, I woke up sick and anxious, I took 2 Klonopin and 2 Zofran, and now im worried my Klonopin wouldn’t last through the month; assuredly it won’t, if I […]